WANT FOR COLORFUL LIFE resulting into a CONFUSED MIND....?

I want a very colorful life. i want to have a lot of friends around. i want to be respected. i want to be centre of attraction. i want to be successful. this obviously means that i have none of the above mentioned stuff. and this all saddens me. never been that kind of a person. and after 19 years of life i believe its a little late for things to change. i tried and failed simply because i am not that kind of person. but despite of understanding the fact i am not happy. i feel depressed. whenever i see such people i feel sad. i always feel a bit low. any suggestions????